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上周末，由于嘴里某个以惊人速度扩张的牙洞，我平生第一次踏进了牙医诊所的大门。

医生看过那个洞的状况之后，面无表情的告诉我由于这个洞太巨大的缘故，必须把那颗牙剩下的部分完全磨掉、塞药消炎、再装颗新的上去。然后我就开始了跟各种钳子和钻头的亲密接触。

都说钻头是男人的浪漫，可是当它在你嘴里轰然作响的时候，你还会有冲破天际的豪气么。
再者，所谓貌美丰满的御姐牙医，都只是男人的YY和爱情动作片才有的可能罢了。
牙医诊所实在是一个让身体不由自主僵硬起来的地方啊。

后来，在清理牙洞时被扯到神经，我当即痛得眼泪都出来了，这也不错，刷新了我最近一次眼睛湿润的纪录。
再后来因为必须把牙根的神经抽出来，打了针麻药。
这针麻药导致我从踏出诊所到睡觉前一直处于半面瘫状态。半边脸+舌头完全不像是属于自己的，微笑的感觉非常的奇怪，更不用说讲话，还不断的咬到一点自己的舌头和口腔侧面，甚至吞咽这个动作都变得困难起来——我一边走一边想，要是我会被自己的口水噎死，那也就是今晚了。

后来的事情竟然出乎意料的顺利。
并没有像牙医所说的那样因为牙洞里的药而导致牙痛，昨天去换药也很顺利而且一点都不痛。唯一比较困扰的只有嘴里那股没办法赶走的药味了。
希望它快点好起来，然后就像装零件一样“咔”地把那颗牙套上就好了。

God Bless....然后，不要再蛀牙啦~看来等这次完全搞定之后要去洗一次牙才行了。

p.s.由于我被磨掉的是右边最里侧的一颗大牙，回来之后照镜子发现，我右脸竟然比左脸小了一点!
可是，当我把这个发现告诉舍友和其他人时，他们通通不信!没有一个人相信……为什么……T__T

昨晚做了一个名副其实的噩梦——绝望地发现自己上学期的考试挂掉了四科。
大概是因为睡觉前心惊胆战的去查了一下成绩的缘故吧，即使直到昨晚，系统仍然只显示着我可怜的概统成绩，以及“你本学期学分应修学分为XX，实际学分为0”的警示。
本来以为自己对挂科已经麻木了，但在梦里看到我可怕的成绩时，还是颤抖了，随即就是弥漫开的无边的绝望。
还记得梦里挂掉的另外三科的成绩分别是4、2、1打头的（有没有这么可怕啊Orz），既然都说梦是反的，那就祈祷我除了数学以外的科目都平安PASS吧，邪神保佑T__T

后来又记起一点关于昨晚梦的内容，貌似是去到某个整形医院结果去要求医生帮我整鼻子……回想起来后觉得很奇怪，因为我并没有对自己的鼻子不满过。如果我哪一天真的去整形了，首先要动的地方明明是这张大饼脸才对嘛。

 因为乱七八糟的原因没去成YACA，期待已久的樱花节又被寒流冻得只有光秃秃的树枝，深圳的漫展也因为太可怕而放弃了。还好如愿去看了OCT的建筑双城双年展。
一进门就看到这么个模型。我严重怀疑作者是EVA的fan，活脱脱一个第三东京市阿……真感动，就差没有那个三角锥了。

 

圣战日有惊无险的度过了，某白痴狠好人，长江七号没有想象中糟糕，宅们的怨念很强大。

贴几张当天的图以表纪念好了。

 

 

 

 

呆在家里已经是第5天了。

 不知道要做什么，不知道有谁可以一起玩，不想呆在家里，不想出门，找不到兼职，找不到可以联系的人。

昨晚接到陶X的信息，说是24号回YC看老师。顿时心凉掉，暑假的那次就是因为在打工而没法过去，这次又因为要出去而错过了。这样一来可能在这个假期都见不到某一些人了。也罢，该见到的终归会见到，见不到的也没办法强求。

网上诱人的兼职好多好多，可是为什么大部分都在我去海南期间。上午打开邮箱打算发信去一个新的兼职试试，猛然发现有封21号的回信。很激动的以为是之前的尝试有了回音，打开信却只看到三个字：电话呢？原来我那天忘记写电话了……泪
本来那边应该是觉得我可以的吧，可是我竟然粗心到电话都没写，又过了两天才回，肯定是没希望了...我就这样白白的丢了一个机会。还有一个2月13、13号的花店兼职是我很想去的，可我早就定了那时候去YACA的啊。果然娱乐跟赚钱总是势不两立的。虽然pp嚷着花店的工作很辛苦很辛苦，但我就是有兴趣嘛。想要在那个被强加上意义的日子把花送到那些幸福的人手中啊。

明天出发去海南，老爸开车，又要呆在车上无所事事。
虽然立志在这个假期掉进轻小说的坑，也拖了狼与香辛料、空之境界带回来，还是没办法安坐在电脑前看下去。只有亲手摸到书，一页一页慢慢翻过去，才有真正看书的感觉啊。可是我既买不起台版，也不想买所谓的珊瑚文库版，再不想看扫图版那就不用看了。等这次回来后再慢慢解决吧。

回来后只见了pp和女人。那天去p宿舍找她然后做了一次电灯泡蹭了顿饭。pp新的男人看上去是个不错的好人，一定会珍惜她的吧，恩。
我们在桂庙的无数小店之一吃鸡煲，在辛辛苦苦等到火锅再度煮开，捞起来第一颗牛肉丸的时候，突然来了两个城管要赶走这些摆在露天的饭桌。其中一个城管还拿着防bao警察用的那种盾牌，气势汹汹的提着一根铁棍似的东西（后来我跟p说那是铁锤，她嘲笑我一番后告诉我只是警棍而已）。我当即懵了一下，猛地往后挪了下椅子，感觉他们马上要过来掀桌子似的。pp的小高同学叹道，早知我们就抓紧时间多吃几口啦。
后来其实什么事情也没有发生，只不过把在外面的桌子们统统塞到店里去了。不大的店面顿时被火锅的蒸汽弄得热气腾腾。桌子碗筷摆放停当后，食客们很快就开始继续与锅里的东西搏斗。期间好像听到店里的人说着，有一桌的客人不见了，仅此而已。

吃过饭后去到海岸城找女人，跟他一起一边乱逛一边感叹自己的消费能力低下。兜到4楼（还是5楼？）时候终于发现了一个打电玩的地方，我们兴奋地冲过去，很快发现那里竟然连一台格斗类的街机都没有，也没有打碟机。女人还是百无聊赖的玩起了大家来找碴，我去找有什么可以玩的机器，却看到了一台名为“小鼓王”的国产山寨版太鼓达人...囧过之后我还是决定试一下它究竟怎样。
整个机器的外形跟太鼓有九分相似，欢迎画面和卡通形象虽然差别比较大，但那配色明显是照搬的。进入游戏后，赫然出现了两个等级：七岁以下、八岁以上。我继续无语，稍稍考虑了一下还是选了“八岁以上”组= =|||很快，展现在我眼前的歌单又一次让我Orz到底。那都是些真·祖国产儿歌啊！左挑右选也没有一首能听的，无奈之下只好挑了相对正常一点的圣诞歌。没有任何难度的结束之后，机器吐出一串票，扔给我“Game Over”两个大字。这次我才是彻底的囧了。就这样完了？省省吧，这机器本来就不是给你这年龄的人玩的你非要掺和什么....我以后还是老老实实的去岁宝的烂机房玩好了。

因为某句玩笑似的话，催生了这个暑假去江浙沪走一圈的念头。而且慢慢演化成越来越强烈的愿望，变成了实际的计划。有目标对我来说是一件好事。只是，可能真的要踏上一个人的旅途吧。

一个人，虽然自由，终究还是有些寂寞啊。

下午吃掉了一只橙子，虽然不是什么很贵的品种，却异常的香气扑鼻。

吃掉它之后，那股橙子特有的甜香还一直萦绕在周围，直到晚上冲完凉才消失不见。

不由得想起那段日子：把自己的名字变成Orange、每天一个新奇士带到学校、买橙味的果冻和棉花糖。费尽心思把自己跟这种水果联系到一起。尽管这些行为的起因实在是简单的可笑。

后来放下了那一段之后，橙子在刻意或不经意中慢慢淡出了我的生活，后来似乎只剩下那时候注册的几个必须继续用下去的ID。就想我曾经说过，想要成为柠檬，却变成了一只橙子。本来就是强行安在自己头上的东西，在那个缘由被逐渐忘掉时同时淡出我的生活也是很正常的吧。

上个月圣诞节时，收到了达叔送来的一只橙子。那是绿青跟很多学校合作的“水果贺卡”活动，可以给包括我们学校各个校区乃至全国几十所大学的学生在平安夜送上水果。因为之前达叔很急的问我宿舍号，被我猜到要干嘛，少了一点惊喜，但那天回来看到桌子上一只橙子的时候还是颇有感触的。

嗅着它的味道，虽然不如柠檬那样鲜明，但有一种暖暖阳光般的感觉，让在人放松中获得力量。之前送给pp的生日礼物就是橙味的身体乳液，不知道她有没有偶尔用一点呢~因为我觉得那是一种能使人心情变好的味道。

许久没写过点什么，看的文字除了课本杂志之外似乎也屈指可数，都不知道该怎么组织语言了。而且我在blog上一写起东西来，就会变得越来越自说自话，到我自己都有些看不下去的地步。shineblog那个窝应该是要被我再次废弃掉了吧。没有什么具体的理由，或许是因为在学校的电脑上总是没办法完整打开编辑模板的页面，或许是因为那个地方是在刚进大学的时候启用的，或许只是因为在那边太久太久没有写东西干脆抛弃.....总之我不是一个够专一的人。只希望blogbus的这块地能让我呆尽量久的时间吧。

foobar里现在放的是ゆず的歌，刚刚拖下来不久的。本来以为柚子会是奥华子、熊木杏里那类风格——然而这只是我只看了名字和封面连介绍都没看一眼的妄想罢了（被PIA飞），几个大叔的声音在耳朵里想起来的时候我着实愣了一下，才明白过来是自己纱布了。不过他们的歌还不错啦，整天听清新风的也会厌烦，是该听听大叔换下口味啦~

貌似我一直都是这样，发呆和冲凉的时候有一堆一堆的话在脑子里撞来撞去，等到手一放到键盘上面就不知道按哪个键才好了。坐在这里挤啊挤了好半天才挤出这么一点别扭的句子。所以，还是睡觉去吧。明天消费者行为学，后天会计学，然后不管会有什么结果这一学期终究是结束了。

WISH自己考试时有好的RP，还有，能够容易的入睡。

就是因为生活的不确定性、偶尔增添的新的可能性，才会让人抱有某种期待啊。
那么，这一次，究竟会是怎样呢？

不过按惯例来说还是不要太过期望的好。

先是转自verycd的介绍：

中文名称：曾经
版本：电影原声大碟
发行时间：2007年5月22日
专辑歌手：原声大碟
地区：爱尔兰
语言：英语
简介：


专辑介绍：

Even those allergic to musicals may be won over by Once, a tender-hearted Irish romance with songs by Czech Republic–born Markéta Irglová and Frames frontman Glen Hansard. (The film's director, John Carney, actually used to play bass in the group.) The trick here is that Irglová and Hansard also play the leads; because their characters are shown busking, writing music, or rehearsing, the songs are smoothly integrated in the film. The overall acoustic mood won't surprise fans of the Frames--some tracks ("Say It to Me," "When Your Mind's Made Up") have even popped up on the band's albums, though the arrangements are more pared-down here, befitting the scruffy, street-musician setting. Being the lesser-known entity, Irglová feels like a revelation; she sounds a bit like a folkie Björk on "If You Want Me," and her song "The Hill" is downright heartbreaking. Irglová and Hansard had already made the 2006 album The Swell Seasontogether, so their collaboration here feels really organic--they sound particularly good together on the title track, for instance. Now that's the kind of magic you want from musicals. --Elisabeth Vincentelli


专辑曲目：

01. Falling Slowly
02. If You Want Me
03. Broken Hearted Hoover Fixer Sucker Guy
04. When Your Minds Made Up
05. Lies
06. Gold
07. The Hill
08. Fallen from the Sky
09. Leave
10. Trying to Pull Myself Away
11. All the Way Down
12. Once
13. Say It to Me Now

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文件名：Glen.Hansard.&.Markéta.Irglová.-.Once.(Original.Soundtrack).rar 
文件大小： 83.3M
提取码：7884981353617079  （电信）
保质期：至少半年吧，我不怎么用mofile的而且马甲才是王道=  =

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相信只要看过这部电影的人都会有去找原声带的冲动吧。因为实在是不会写评论，就不献丑了。
在此忏悔一下：为了在基本连不上emule服务器的校园网上拖下这张碟，我可耻的用了xunlei...
为了弥补我的过错，挂了好几个钟头把碟传到mofile上去，对于不方便用emule或者跟我一样连不上服务器的人算是比较方便吧。

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　　1.Falling Slowly  ★★★★☆
　　
　　I don't know you
　　But I want you
　　All the more for that
　　Words fall through me
　　And always fool me
　　And I can't react
　　And games that never amount
　　To more than they're meant
　　Will play themselves out
　　
　　Take this sinking boat and point it home
　　We've still got time
　　Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
　　You've made it now
　　
　　Falling slowly, eyes that know me
　　And I can't go back
　　Moods that take me and erase me
　　And I'm painted black
　　You have suffered enough
　　And warred with yourself
　　It's time that you won
　　
　　Take this sinking boat and point it home
　　We've still got time
　　Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
　　You've made it now
　　
　　Take this sinking boat and point it home
　　We've still got time
　　Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
　　You've made it now
　　Falling slowly sing your melody
　　I'll sing along
　　


　　2.If You Want Me  ★★★★★
　　
　　Are you really here or am I dreaming
　　I can’t tell dreams from truth
　　For it’s been so long since I have seen you
　　I can hardly remember your face anymore
　　When I get really lonely and the distance calls its only silence
　　I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs
　　
　　If you want me satisfy me
　　If you want me satisfy me
　　
　　Are you really sure that you believe me
　　When others say I lie
　　I wonder if you could ever despise me
　　You know I really try
　　To be a better one to satisfy you for you’re everything to me
　　And I do what you ask me
　　If you let me be free
　　
　　If you want me satisfy me
　　If you want me satisfy me
　　
　　If you want me satisfy me
　　If you want me satisfy me
　　


　　3. Broken Hearted Hoover Fixer Sucker Guy
　　
　　Ten years ago
　　I fell in love with an Irish girl
　　She took my heart
　　
　　But she went and screwed some guy she knew
　　and now I'm in Dublin with a broken heart
　　
　　Oh broken hearted Hoover fixer sucker guy
　　Oh broken hearted Hoover fixer sucker, sucker guy
　　
　　One day I'll go there and win her once again
　　but until then I'm just a sucker of a guy
　　


　　4. When Your Minds Made Up
　　
　　So
　　If you ever want something
　　You call, you call
　　And I'll come running to fight
　　And I'll be at your door
　　And there's nothing worth running for
　　
　　When your mind is made up
　　When your mind is made up
　　There's no point trying to change it
　　When your mind is made up
　　When your mind is made up
　　There's no point trying to stop it
　　
　　You see you're just like everyone
　　When you share your falls
　　All you want to do is run away
　　And hide all by yourself
　　When there's fall, there's fall
　　There's nothing else
　　
　　When your mind is made up
　　When your mind is made up
　　There's no point trying to change it
　　When your mind is made up
　　When your mind is made up
　　There's no point even talkin'
　　When your mind is made up
　　When your mind is made up
　　There's no point trying to fight it
　　When your mind, your mind
　　
　　There's no point trying to change it
　　When your
　　
　　
　　So
　　If you ever want something
　　Then you call, call
　　Then I'll come running
　　


　　5. Lies  ★★★★★
　　
　　I think it's time, we give it up
　　And figure out what's stopping us
　　From breathing easy, and talking straight
　　The way is clear if you're ready now
　　The volunteer is slowing down
　　And taking time to save himself
　　
　　The little cracks they escalated
　　And before you know it is too late
　　For making circles and telling lies
　　
　　You're moving too fast for me
　　And I can't keep up with you
　　Maybe if you slowed down for me
　　I could see you're only telling
　　Lies, lies, lies
　　Breaking us down with your
　　Lies, lies, lies
　　When will you learn
　　
　　The little cracks they escalated
　　And before you know it is too late
　　For making circles and telling lies
　　
　　You're moving too fast for me
　　And I can't keep up with you
　　Maybe if you'd slowed down for me
　　I could see you're only telling
　　Lies, lies, lies
　　Breaking us down with your
　　Lies, lies, lies
　　When will you learn
　　
　　So plant the thought and watch it grow
　　Wind it up and let it go
　　


　　6. Gold
　　
　　And I love her so
　　I wouldn't trade her for gold
　　I'm walking on moon beams
　　I was born with a silver spoon
　　And I'm gonna be free
　　I'm gonna be free
　　I'm walking on moon beams
　　and staring out to sea
　　
　　and if a door close
　　then a road for home start building
　　and tear your curtains down
　　for sunlight is like gold
　　
　　And you better be you
　　And do what you can do
　　When you're walking on moon beams
　　Staring out to sea
　　Cause if your skin was soil
　　How long do you think before they start digging
　　and if your life was gold
　　how long would you think you'd stay livin'?
　　Hey
　　
　　And I love her so
　　I wouldn't trade her for gold
　　


　　7. The Hill  ★★★★★
　　
　　Looking up the hill tonight
　　When you have closed your eyes
　　I wish I didn't have to make all those mistakes and be wise
　　Please try to be patient and know that I'm still learning
　　I'm sorry that you have to see the strength inside me burning
　　
　　Where are you now, angel now
　　Don't you see me crying
　　And I know that you can't do it all
　　But you can't say your not trying
　　I'm on my knees in front of him
　　But he doesn't seem to see me
　　But all his troubles on his mind is looking right through me
　　And I'm letting myself down deciding is falling you
　　And I wished that you could see I have my troubles too
　　
　　Lookin' at you sleeping
　　I'm with a man I know
　　I'm sitting here weeping while the hours pass so slow
　　And I know that in the mornin' I have to let you go
　　And you'll be just a man once I leave to know
　　For these past few days someone I don't recognize
　　This isn't all my fault
　　When will you realize
　　
　　Lookin' at you leavin'
　　I'm looking for a sign
　　
　　
　　
　　8. Fallen from the Sky

　　You must've fallen from the sky
　　You must've shattered on the runway
　　you've brought so many to the light
　　And now you're by yourself
　　
　　There comes a point in every fight
　　When giving up seems like the only way
　　When everyone one has said goodbye
　　And now you're on your own
　　
　　If you need somewhere to fall apart
　　Somewhere to fall apart
　　The rules of cain ,the rights you've made
　　The owls that caw, for those to blame
　　The broken glass, the fool that asked
　　The moving arrow to stop
　　
　　You must've fallen from the sky
　　You must've come here in the pourin' rain
　　You took so many through the light
　　And now you're on your own
　　
　　If you need somewhere to fall apart
　　Somewhere to fall apart
　　The ruins of man, the bloody black
　　The fool that bull the prouder hag
　　The night the makes the rattle ack
　　The wolves that follow the outed man
　　The falling star the way we are
　　The vern
　　The rules that never ever mulitply
　　
　　You must've fallen from the sky
　　You must've come here on the wrong way
　　You came among us every time
　　But now you're on your own
　　
　　If you need somewhere to fall apart
　　Somewhere to fall apart
　　The call you seek, the basket case
　　The rules of thumb you have to break
　　The raging skull, The rag to the bull
　　The nails that drag in either hand
　　Well I will make my worker that
　　I know this place
　　I know this time
　　
　　You must've fallen from the sky
　　
　　
　　9.Leave
　　
　　I can't wait forever is all that you said
　　Before you stood up
　　And you won't disappoint me
　　I can do that myself
　　But I'm glad that you've come
　　Now if you don't mind
　　
　　Leave, leave,
　　And free yourself at the same time
　　Leave, leave,
　　I don't understand, you've already gone
　　
　　And I hope you feel better
　　Now that it's out
　　What took you so long
　　And the truth has a habit
　　Of falling out of your mouth
　　But now that it's come
　　If you don't mind
　　
　　Leave, leave,
　　And please yourself at the same time
　　Leave, leave,
　　Let go of my hand
　　You said what you have to now
　　Leave, leave,
　　Let go of my hand
　　You said what you came to now
　　Leave, leave,
　　Leave, leave,
　　Let go of my hand
　　You said what you have to now
　　Leave, leave...
　　
　　
　　10.Trying to Pull Myself Away 
　　
　　Breaking up in the station, a final train
　　I don't even know if I'll ever see you again
　　Is it a choice that we even have?
　　
　　Bang bang down on the piano 'til I smash the keys
　　Listening alone with the melodies
　　Everything's gone and I don't know where
　　
　　And the rule of thumb don't apply anymore
　　'Cause the house is burning....
　　
　　Trying to pull myself away
　　I'm caught in a pattern and I can't escape
　　Trying to pull myself away
　　
　　Lately when I get lost there's this thing I know
　　Even the dogs have somewhere to go
　　Everything comes if you just it be
　　
　　Work, work, brighten the corners that will never see
　　Untangle the thoughts that you know what they mean
　　I hope that the answer doesn't come to late
　　
　　And the rule of thumb don't apply on me
　　'Cause the table are turning
　　
　　Trying to pull myself away
　　I'm caught in a pattern and I can't escape
　　Trying to pull myself away
　　I'm caught in a pattern and I can't escape
　　Can't escape
　　
　　Trying to pull myself away, everything's gone
　　Trying to pull myself away, everything's gone
　　
　　
　　11.All the Way Down
　　
　　You have broken me all the way down,
　　down upon my knees.
　　And you have broken me all the way down,
　　you'll be the last, you'll see.
　　
　　Some fight you gave,
　　and I pushed you away
　　from me.
　　
　　And in the morning when you turn in
　　I'll be far to sea.
　　
　　And you have broken me all the way down.
　　You'll be the last, you'll see.
　　
　　And what chance have we got
　　when you've missed every shot
　　for me?
　　
　　And in the morning when you turn in
　　I'll be out of reach.
　　And in the darkness when you find this
　　I'll be far to sea.
　　
　　And you have broken me all the way down.
　　You'll be the last, you'll see.
　　
　　　
　　
　　12.Once
　　
　　Part of me
　　Has Died
　　And won't return
　　And part of me
　　Wants to hide
　　The part that's burned
　　
　　Once, once
　　Knew how to talk to you
　　Once, once
　　But not anymore
　　
　　Hear the sirens call me home
　　Hear the sirens call me home
　　Hear the sirens call me home
　　Hear the sirens call me home
　　
　　Part of me
　　Has vied
　　To watch it burn
　　And the heart of me
　　Has tried
　　But look what it's become
　　
　　Once, once
　　I knew how to look for you
　　Once, once
　　But that was before
　　Once, once
　　I would have laid down to died for you
　　Once, once
　　But not anymore.
　　
　　Hear the sirens call me home
　　Hear the sirens call me home
　　Hear the sirens call me home
　　Hear the sirens call me home
　　
　　
      13.Say It to Me Now
　　
　　I'm scratching at the surface now
　　And I'm trying hard to work it out
　　So much has gone misunderstood
　　This mystery only leads to doubt
　　And I didn't understand
　　When you reached out to take my hand
　　And if you have something to say
　　You'd better say it now
　　
　　Cause this is what you've waited for
　　Your chance to even up the score
　　And as these shadows fall on me now
　　I will somehow
　　
　　Cause this is what you've waited for
　　A chance to even up the score
　　And as these shadows fall on me now
　　I will somehow
　　
　　Cause I'm picking up a message Lord
　　And I'm closer than I've ever been before
　　
　　So if you have something to say
　　Say it to me now
　　Say it to me now
　　Say it to me now